PSALMS 16:11

I've been doing some thinking since yesterday. I was hoping to get answers to my questions, and hope that somehow i'll be able to find peace of mind amidst the confusing situation i am currently into. I always believe that God will never let me down. and in fact, He never did! despite of the fact that i've hurted him a thousand times already.

I attended church yesterday. The sermon was about "birth, growth, and maturity." These are 3 things God would want us to undergo. I guess, i was somehow stuck between the latter two stages. I feel rather helpless and hopeless. Yet, something the Pastor said raised my spirits "There is always hope in God." God really wanted to minister to me. He used a very special person in my life to make me realize my mistakes, and how to deal with it. Through this good friend, I now understand what was wrong with my life all these years. I sincerely pray that this time, I'd be able to follow His lead. "Thank you Jacqui..."

Sometimes, I ask the Lord why is it that He always tests me everytime i make an effort to really obey Him, and i end-up doing otherwise. But then, Jacqui is right. Trials become bigger and more difficult as we go on with life, and these things make us stronger and better persons. We are truly a work in progress, and that's how God shows us we matter to Him. We are not ignored nor forgotten.

I don't exactly know what to feel right now. But whatever circumstances bring, I know that God is always there for me and that i would just have to learn to trust and obey Him no matter how difficult it is.

"You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand." (Psalms 16:11)