THE MADDENING

I don't think im inlove right now. but i can't get him off my mind. i know i don't deserve him. yet, whenever i close my eyes, i can vividly see his face. those eyes, those looks that makes me melt. whenever i try to convince myself to forget him and move on, i feel trapped. he's driving me crazy, and i hope i begin to hate him for that. when he smiles, when he speaks, i tremble. honestly, i have never ever felt this way before...not even with the ULTIMATE EX! that's how im into him...right now...when i'm with him, i can't think rationally. as if im under a spell. in a daze. as much as i want to turn this into an illusion, it isn't...and that's what scares the hell out of me...coz the fantasy just turned into a reality.